The teacher thing...

I have no problem admitting that more than once I have doubted, or questioned whether teaching little kids, or teaching at all, is really FOR ME. Don't get me wrong, there's no question about how much I love kids, and that I want to work with them, but the whole "being a teacher" thing is what I sometimes wondered about. It's just a really big responsibility and at the end of almost 4 years of college I was not feeling so secure that my education(and experience with TODDLERS) had prepared me for that role.

Well, this week i was with the kids in a circle teaching a lesson or something or other and all of a sudden it dawned on me. wow, i'm a teacher. When I first came to YWAM my expectations for the job with foundation school were completely different than what I found on my first day lol. I was expecting to be nothing but a helper to someone who was completely in charge and knew what they were doing.... but instead it's a lot more like a co-teaching experience. The other teacher and I split up the subjects each week and we are fully in charge of teaching that area, and of course beyond that is classroom management which I feel has been left completely up to moi :) (that's not to say that the other teachers don't help with that, but "order" is one of those things that comes naturally for me only because I can't really function in a classroom without it, so i've just taken over that area without realizing heheh)

At any rate, the point is I feel like the whole experience though very very hard and frustrating at times :) has given me some confidence, and DESIRE, to go into student teaching in january. I'm really looking forward to it. I know that God had it all planned out this way for a reason, and it has been just what I needed.

This week has been one amazing week of just learning that God is faithful, and He really hears little OLD ME! it has been so good, and now I can't wait to go home and share it all with you

missing y'all!!





the kids praying for China